tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70472415182072166152012-02-16T03:37:41.445-08:00Erikanoreply@blogger.comBlogger581100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-73987241250239285402010-03-10T11:28:00.000-08:002010-03-10T12:36:49.135-08:00

So I have sorely neglected this blog...but I don't think many read this anyway. I am updating and hope to keep updating so that I can read back and remind myself of everything, as time is flying incredible fast and life seems a blur at times! My son is almost a year old! Where has all the time gone, i have no idea. All I do know is that it has been one fun ride. Even through the few sleepless

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The little guy is now 2 months and 1 week old! I can't believe how big he is getting and so fast! He seems to be bigger everyday that goes by...every morning that i pick him up from his bassinet he looks bigger than the day before! My hubby and I are enjoying it so very much! We are turning the corner and my little guy is outgrowing his digestive issues. From 3 weeks to about 8 weeks it was rough

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I started this blog 2 weeks ago to account for the first 2 weeks of being a mom, and here we are at almost 6 weeks.. I still wanted to post what it has been like. It hasn't been as tough as i thought it would be, but it certainly has had its challenging...a lot to learn even though i have had experiences with babies and newborns to some extent, it is a whole new ballgame it is your own. The

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A birth story! I still can't believe it myself. After a long, emotional, frustrating, fertility challenged journey I am a mother to a beautiful baby boy. I stare at him during the day and still can't believe he is all mine, he belongs to me and my loving husband. Here is the birthstory, sorry for the delay.My baby boy was born on April 22, 2009 at 7:03pm weighing 7lbs 4oz and 19 inches long. The

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So I had my level II ultrasound yesterday morning and what an experience it was. My eyes were teary the entire time... and i think i had a silly grin the whole time. The whole time I was laying there while the first ultrasound tech did her thing, was pray. I prayed for thanks that God brought me to this point. A point where, in my darkest days, seemed impossible and would never happen.  I prayed

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Where does time go??? I can not believe how quickly time goes by and there has been so much going on it is no wonder that it is passing me by.  I do apologize for no updates since 13 weeks!!!! Here I am a couple of days away from being 20 weeks, the half way mark!! Time is certainly moving faster, yet seems to creep by!! I have my "BIG" ultrasound tomorrow.  I haven't seen my baby since i was

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It is official.... I'm a diabetic!!! i was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes...boooooooo!!!  My OB wanted to test me early due to my family history, my PCOS, and my weight. My fluffy self was predisposed to it.  So it was confirmed a few days ago.  I will meet with a dietician/nutritionist once a week through out my pregnancy. It won't be soo bad, and it will be okay. I had a a laugh when my

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I meant to post this last week as my anniversary was here and has now passed, but still very significant for me. I needed to write my feelings of where i was at now 3 years ago. I don't remember the date specifically, but remember it being a Friday and the Blue Angels were in town for the weekend's Fleet Week festivities in San Francisco. It was a Friday afternoon that I and my loving hubby

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I turned 8 weeks pregnant this past Friday and so far all was going so well.  I have had only mild morning sickness until then, with just a few moments here and there that I would feel like I would loose whatever meal i had eaten, but fortunately haven't thrown up anything...yet.  I also had my first pre-natal appointment with my OBs office and I was excited. I was hoping for another ultra-sound

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Yup, we will be a family of 3 come May 2009!! We transfered two perfect embryos and one decided to stick around and get comfortable!! I am still in bit of shock that it will actually happen. AFter all years of ups and downs, after the river of tears I have cried, and all the frustration, I will be a mom! I think it will still feel a bit surreal until I start to show and I get to feel the flutters

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Life is all about waiting. Infertility is definitely the biggest Waiting game I have played! It certainly tries your patience too! As I sit here being 6 weeks and 3 days pregnant, I wait to see if indeed my baby or babies are really sticking around! I was to have an ultra sound this afternoon to see if my babies would have heartbeats, but it was not to be. Dr. had some complication during a

Erikanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-60476407934985495272008-08-25T15:08:00.000-07:002008-08-25T15:26:25.494-07:00

Hello blog world! Well it is official.... dh and I will be welcoming a baby or babies by May of 2009!!!! Our first IVF attempt had worked and I feel great being able to say it!!! I'M PREGNANT!!! I had my first pregnancy test Friday, I tested at home using a home pregnancy test (HPT) Friday morning even though I was not supposed too. But i had to make sure it would be positive...i had to

Erikanoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-75362764257006137022008-08-09T11:52:00.000-07:002008-08-09T11:59:25.193-07:00

Got a call from my RE's office this morning giving me fertilization report... and here is what is going on with the Eggis retrieved yesterday morning: 24 total eggs were retrieved23 of 24 were viable, meaning mature21 of the 23 Fertilized!!! This means we have 21 embryos! 21 Babies growing!! Dr. said that this is beyond what they ever expect from anyone so this is an excellent report. With this

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Egg Retrieval (ER) was yesterday, on the lucky 8th day of the 8th month of year in 2008... 8/8/08! The Chinese culture believes that the number 8 is very lucky, so lucky that they planned the Olympics opening ceremony to be on this date, and to start at 8:08 pm local time! I have always thought of 8 as my lucky number myself no real reason just that it was my birthday. So 8/8/08 was the day for

Erikanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-54086973871133130942008-08-01T12:14:00.000-07:002008-08-01T12:30:49.560-07:00

TGIF???? Usually I enjoy Fridays because it is Friday.. the end of a work week and you have 2 days to enjoy and do as you please! Today has been an unusual "bad" Friday!!! It sucks big time when your past comes back to bite you in the ass!!! I found out that I can not apply for a new health insurance coverage until probably 2011!! Why 2011, because in February 2011 will mark 5 years of being

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I'm sure it could be a lot worse!! I started my injections on the 17th w/ Lupron and I added Follistim injections to the mix on Saturday, the 26th.  Follistim is the medication to stimulate my ovaries(aka FSH)! Lupron injections are in my thigh and the FSH injections i'm administrating in my belly area.  Not fun!!! I don't like needles at all!!! My hubby pretty much did ALL injections during the

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Cheekies has arrived!! Cheekies is my nickname for my niece, Alyssa! She made her entrance in this world on July 17th at 4:36pm via C-section.  She weighed 6lbs and 14 oz. and 19 inches long.  She has a head full of dark hair that looks like it will be curly.... my sister always wished her hair was curly, and now maybe her daughter will have it.  She is just so beautiful I wanna cry every time I

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I have started the processes to start IVF.  I had my ultra-sound (u/s) this morning to check my ovaries to make sure there had been no activity, to make sure there were no cysts present. Now I knew there shouldn't be since i have been on birth control pills (BCPs) since June 12.  I stayed on them even though we had canceled the IVF cycle last month, since I didn't ovulate on my own and I would

Erikanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-87767007528583793192008-07-10T12:01:00.000-07:002008-07-10T12:23:05.184-07:00

My sister will be 38 weeks pregnant this Sunday....wow time flies!!!! She is going to have a big baby too, as my sister is pretty big...and looks so adorable pregnant. It still trips me out that my kid sister is going to have a baby!!! We are anxiously awaiting the birth of my Niece Alyssa, and she is all ready being dramatic and seeking attention from inside her mother's womb!!! I stopped by my

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Hello my cyber readers.... all 3 of you!!! LOL Actually i'm not sure how many actually read my random thoughts.... but hello to anyone out there.... I know I have at least 1 !! haahaahaaaaaaNo I'm not loosing my mind... not at the moment at least. I'm just waiting out this cycle to finish so that I can start IVF. Yes!! after a YEAR of trying to ovulate and trying to be financially stable to do

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So it's been a while! I've been very neglectful to my journal writing... bad bad me! But I've been trying to find an emotional balance within myself in hopes of being as close to my normal self.... whatever my normal self is! I continue with therapy although i've had a few weeks break from it as my therapist went away on vacation. So far okay. No emotional break downs and find myself relatively

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After a couple therapy sessions, I am faced to admit i have some real issues that go beyond Infertility!! I started going to therapy because i was not having any luck finding a local support group and really needing to talk to someone who could in some way relate in the pain and anguish I was experiencing TTC now for 5 LONG years!! I did a quick search for therapist covered under our medical

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$40 for gas!!!! Now I know that is cheap compared to other cars...like my husband who pays almost twice that amount!! I drive a Honda Civic and haven't had to pay more than $30 for gas in the recent years that Gas price have slowly gone up!! I was surprised to see that my last trip to the pump it was almost $40!!! I remember the good ol' days were I was paying $15-20 for a full tank of gas!!!

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This sums up my weekend!! LOL It was a very fun and busy weekend. My good friend flew up from San Diego to spend a few days with me before her work related conference started and we spent the weekend with my sister, who is 6 months pregnant.  Saturday, after picking up my friend from the airport we picked up my sister from my parents house and headed out to Target to help my sister set up her

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I hate when I have one of those weeks where I just feel sooooo BLAH!!! I am having a hard week so far, so emotional and so unhappy. It just feels like I take a step forward and then I stumble back 3 steps. It is a feeling hard to explain. I guess I'm just growing very restless and so sad that after 5 years of TTC our home remains empty of a child.  I've been looking for a local support group and

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One of the hardest things of being Fertility Challenged is that I am always trying to be realistic, expect no miracle to occur month after month, and still pray for one to happen and be disappointed when 'Aunt Flo' (aka AF= menstrual period) makes her appearance every month. Even when I'm taking provera to induce a visit from AF I still find myself waiting AF's arrival and praying that a Miracle

Erikanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-51217093210803533722008-03-24T12:34:00.001-07:002008-03-24T13:04:38.206-07:00

I picked up the People magazine with Jennifer Lopez and her precious twins on the cover. I couldn't help it, not only am I slightly obsessed with twins (LOL), but I like a majority of people out there are curious about celebrities and their babies! I had heard about it all week long about JLo and her twins, and all the questions about did she really or did she really not do IVF or some other form

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It has been a while since I expressed myself. Part of me needed too, and another part just didn't want to deal with everything. I found myself struggling with mild depression, but dealt with it the best way I knew how and got past it. I also found myself preparing myself to face my birthday. I had to constantly keep myself from mourning that my due date from my last miscarriage was my birth date.

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I can't believe how much rain we are getting. It seems like it has rained every day this month! It doesn't happen often, but it does, but it's been a while since it has rained this much. Part of me wants it to go away, it is making me depressed!! Well just staring at it from the inside is making me depressed! I enjoy the rain usually and was feeling bummed that I was feeling bummed about the rain

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I survived all the birthdays in January! I have a total of 7 birthdays of family and friends. I usually celebrate 5 of the 7, this year I celebrated 6 of 7 birthdays and 5 of them in the same week!!! It was a lot of fun, but very tiring! I forget every year how hectic the end of January could be! But I can no start to catch my breath! I am very thankful and appreciate that I can celebrate so many

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That is a question that I find myself asking myself.... "Who am I, and who was I before" I want to go back to who I once was before the infertility journey. I can still remember being a more optimistic person, I remember that my infertility issues weren't always present in my thoughts, I would enjoy babies and children without thinking what MY baby would be like, and really, I just enjoyed life.

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wow can't believe how fast the month is going. We are almost at the end of the first month of 2008. It got off to a rocky start, professionally and personally. Still waiting to get a period.... trying hard not to get paranoid about that....which reminds me i  need to make a Dr. appointment. Not much going on besides the waiting. Work has been a little crazy and i've been getting home really late

Erikanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-69563788707316140542008-01-05T22:04:00.000-08:002008-01-05T23:02:18.590-08:00

Happy 2008!!! I still can't believe another year has come and gone and it is the beginning of a new year! It is a bit exciting as it signifies a new year, a new beginning, a fresh start sort of speak. At least it does for me. Someone asked me, or rather told me, that they didn't get the big hoopla of "Happy New Year" and the big deal about. To them it is just another day. I kinda saw their point,

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I still can't believe Christmas is a week away! Time sure has flown by too quickly! I'm excited and looking forward to spending time with family. Of course i am dreading the questions from those who have no clue what we have been trying to do for the last 4, almost 5 years...... "So when you going to have a baby??" It's an innocent question, but c'mon, after so many years of the same question

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So I ask out loud..."When is it my turn?" I'm feeling a bit confused right now. I am happy, sad, confused, not quite angry, maybe feeling impatient....why you may ask...? My sister called me last nite to give me the news that she is expecting a baby again. Barely 3 months after her loss, she is blessed with a new baby. Maybe the Stork got us confused??? I'm wondering what I have to do to get

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So not much going on in life! Life is pretty quiet when nothing going on! Still on the quest for a child and some days i'm okay with the wait, other days, the emptiness is just unbearable! My hubby was away on business last week and did all that I could to keep myself busy during the evenings.....but the time alone was nice. But i'm happy to have him home! I survived Thanksgiving......but anyone

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I still can't believe Thanksgiving is a few days away! And the month of November is almost done too!!! Wow! I haven't had the energy or time to blog this month, which bums me out some because that means that I didn't get to vent this month! It has been a tough month to be honest with myself. It was a year ago that we found out i was pregnant for the first time ever, but was going to probably

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Today is a great day for so many reasons!!! One, the BIG QUAKE didn't strike!! (hahaha a little morbid joke) 2, it's Halloween!!!!!!!! I love Halloween!!! I didn't dress up this year like other years....hopefully next year! and 3, the most important reason, I got a KITCHENAID MIXER!!! Christmas arrived early for me! My boss who is a great friend of mine, walked in this morning with a nicely

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I sooooo hate earthquakes!!!!!! They freak me out!!!! I think NO ONE could be used to earthquakes! We had one last night and it was pretty significant. Living where i do, I don't feel too many. Up until last night thought that was because we were not that close to a fault line. Now I know different and discovered via news coverage of last nites MODERATE trembler, there is a fault line that runs

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I never would have imagined trying to conceive one baby would be so emotional, so stressful, so frustrating and so very painful! I was so afraid of having sex in high school because I didn't want to get pregnant, and I refrained from such pleasures until I felt I could handle an unplanned pregnancy. Luckily for me, my hubby would happen to be the first and only man in my life. We were both on the

Erikanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-27991355279332969342007-10-20T11:40:00.000-07:002007-10-20T12:01:07.035-07:00

I'm Grateful to be Cancer FREE!!! There is always a thought in the back of my mind, there is always a risk, while I still have a uterus and I don't always ovulate, that it can come back. My hubby and I had a brief discussion last week when i came back from my last visit with OUR acupuncturist (yes my hubby is putting aside his skepticism and starting seeing one to help with him get more energy)

Erikanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-91861146551130835122007-10-17T12:25:00.000-07:002007-10-17T12:54:04.965-07:00

Finally...i get to log back in and write down my random thoughts!! Computer at work just stopped working for awhile and i could never find the time at home....i don't know why. I usually feel like i do nothing at home, yet i'm busy...hmmmmmmm anywho, computer is fixed at work and so now i can take some time out when i need it to just write! Not much going on since the last time i posted, sister

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Yay I am having a niece!! i was growing very excited at the thought of shopping for a niece! But God has other plans for all of us. Turns out my niece's little brain isn't developing correctly...my poor niece's brain is mostly liquid. Dr.s told my sister that my niece would make it to term, but when born would be so severly mentally challenged that if she made it, she would probably not make it

Erikanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-6696449163763633422007-08-30T16:24:00.000-07:002007-08-30T16:56:16.515-07:00

I am going to have a Niece!!! Well 75% chance i'm having a niece...Yup my sister is having a girl! Well the baby wouldn't open her legs so the ultra-sound tech couldn't see too well, but saw no obvious sign that it could be boy, but couldn't for sure say it was girl 100%. As my sister's "big day" approached i wasn't sure how i felt about. She was so excited and would email me letting me know

Erikanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7047241518207216615.post-40422293974901098492007-08-20T16:46:00.000-07:002007-08-20T17:05:03.049-07:00

I have to give up dairy!!!! I'm so bummed b/c i love all things dairy!!! I had my second acupuncture appointment Saturday and it was great. SHe is also an herbalist and give me some chinese herbs in a powder form that i'm to mix in a 1/4 cup of warm water and have to take it down in 1-2 big gulps and the taste is not very good. I feel lucky that it is only a small amount i have to drink and i'm

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Well without dreams or daring to dream what else is there? SO i started taking Provera to induce a period 15 days ago. I continued taking my temperature daily just because it helps me stay somewhat sane, and according to FF, had Ovulated about 2 days before i started taking provera. Well i had a really nice temperature pattern. It wasn't as erractic as it sometimes can be even on provera. So i

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I'm a terrible blogger!!! haahaaahaa.... I can't count how many times i attempted to sit down and give an update, or just bare my soul on the days i felt it heavy with whatever emotion.... but I was wiped by the end of June, and the July flew by so quickly, before i knew i was turning the calendar page into a new month. It is amazing how quickly time flies, even when you await something exciting

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I usually do not care Mondays. Sometimes a Monday is uneventful and other days like today, they just seem like crap and set it up for a not so great week. First I just am all over the place with this cycle. The "Am I or Am I NOT Pregnant" is really starting to really get me down. I'm trying so very hard to stay positive, but so afraid of the disappointment of getting another negative pregnancy

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Woo hooo!!! I won't have to wait until June 30th to test...at 14dpIUI(Days Past IUI)I get to test a day early!! I had forgotten that DH and I were going to be attending a conference in Modesto Sat.June 30th. So instead of looking for a lab out there, i thought I would ask to see if I could test a day early. So I call my nurse at my RE's office, and found out she no longer works there. I thought

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Life is all about waiting. We wait to grow up, wait to finish school, we wait to meet that perfect someone, we wait to start a family, wait to get pregnant, then wait for baby to be born, then wait for them to grow up. I am now waiting to find out if our latest treatment worked and we are pregnant. We had our IUI (Intra Uterin Insmeination) Saturday and it went well. Looks promising...but now I

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Four years ago, at this time, I was sitting in my living room in shock. For I had gotten unexpected news just a few hours earlier. A dear childhood friend had died. He was my age, 26 at that time, and had 2 kids. He was now dead. Died in a horrible car accident caused by a drunk driver. I had not seen much of my friend in the years after high school, but I just knew that our paths would cross at

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If all goes according to my planning, IUI should occur by this upcoming weekend. I had my first ultra-sound check yesterday morning and YAY!! I did inject myself correctly and my ovaries are producing.. I had about 10-15 follicles in each ovary. I think i had at least 4 follies measuring 8 or 9 and the smallest measuring 5. I will go back in tomorrow morning for another ultra-sound check and

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I hate being home alone!!! My hubby is gone to Los Angeles for a business workshop for 3 nites and 4 days... =-( and he left me all alone!! I am bummed about that. I have never really liked to be alone. I'm doing good so far... I didn't go running to my mom and dad like I really wanted too!! I knew my mom would love to have me spend the weekend with them...but as much as I do love them, I need to

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I'm a little anxious, excited, nervous.... I'm now on Cycle Day(CD)3 and will start my Follistim injections tonight. This will be our 3rd and most likely final attempt trying to conceive using the IUI method. If it's unsuccessful, we will most likely move onto IVF in the Fall.... I sure wish this IUI attempt works! I am very hopeful but I am also trying to prepare myself for the worst. It will be

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I was talking to a really good friend of mine today, and I found out that she found out she has a lump in her breast. She has to get a biopsy and she isn't doing too well about that discovery. She is such a strong, healthy woman whom I admire. Now she finds herself unsure of what is next to come. Of course we are both optimistic that it will be nothing, but the not knowing is what drives you

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So I took a HPT (home pregnancy test)Sunday morning...I really didn't want to do it, but found it necessary as I started to bleed. This freaked me out because I am taking birth control pills and I should not have any mid-cycle bleeding. So I needed to be sure I didn't need to rush to the ER because i was pregnant and quite possibly loosing a baby I didn't even know I had. When I saw the bright

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The mind IS a powerful tool. It could be used for good and/or for evil. What is worse is when your mind has convinced your body of something that just can't be. For every woman out there who has struggled with getting pregnant can definitely relate to my experience of my mind convincing the rest of my body to believe it to be pregnant. The worst is the bouts of dizziness and nausea, because you

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I finally decided to start a blog. I have been thinking about it for some time now. I use to keep a journal and as i grew older and life became just a bit more hectic it got harder and harder for me to find even a small amount of time to just sit down and write down my random thoughts. Many times I simply could not find my journal, and by the time i found it, I didn't feel like writing down

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